schwim
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- Joined
- Sep 17, 1998
- Messages
- 3,152
- Location
- NC, US
Hi there everyone,
First off, let me say that I hope everyone is doing well, and I've missed you all. Although it will never be in the same capacity as before, I'm looking forward to hanging out with everyone again, moreso than many could imagine. Before I can begin my life at the UHE anew however, I must take care of a couple of things, so I can start my life as an enthusiast with as clean a slate as I can accomplish. That's the purpose of this post.
This may, at first glance seem like a post that doesn't belong here, but I'm sure it does. Everything that I'm about to write about happened on this forum, so this is the place that I need to attempt any acts of atonement. As well, it's going to seem a very dramatic deal for what many will feel is small potatos, but these are things that I think about daily, and they bother me a lot. I promise that I'll try to keep it brief and I apologize in advance for the seemingly melodramatic tone that this post takes. I've tried to keep it to the point, but as I've come to find out with a post as odd as this one, it's hard to make it blend in with the rest of them.
As some of the long standing members may know, I'm an insomniac. Whether I have a lot to do, or a little, I rarely fall asleep any earlier than 3 am, and that's if everything is ok. Now I'm not sure which is a cause and which is a symptom, but regardless, I have a lot of time to think about past transgressions. Things that I've done in my life bother me that other people might not have such a problem with. This would be ok, except for the fact that I've done a bunch of things that I wish I hadn't. My earliest regret is being really mean to a girl that I sat behind in Mrs. Jones' class in second grade. Her name was Ruth and she was unlucky enough to be seated in front of me. For a whole year, I made her life a living hell, pulling her hair, breaking her pencils and anything else I could do to annoy her. Now at face value, this wouldn't seem like a big deal, but it's amazing what can keep you up at night, and this is one of them. Usually, I'll be right at the edge of dozing off, and I'll remember something like this, and I'll be awake again, only to start the process over again.
I've tried to find Ruth to apologize, but have never had any luck, so this one sticks with me. However, I can right some wrongs that I've commited at the UHE, and that's what I plan to do now. It's irrelevent if I'm forgiven or not for these things. For me, the important thing is that I apologize for the things I've done in the same enviroment where I did the thing I'm apologizing for. Unfortunately for me, that's a fairly busy public forum, but I feel that it needs to be done if I'm going to try to be a part of the online family. Buckle up. I've done a lot of crappy stuff, and I'm atoning for some of it here. There's no order of importance, I'm just placing them as I have written the names down. Also, I know that this isn't all, so if you've got me on your list of jerks, and I don't apologize for what I did, please don't take it personally, I can only manage so much dredging of crappy things(I do a lot of crappy things).
Taffy: Mr. Lloyd made his opinions known recently concerning the mods & admins approach at cleaning up the site. In my fervor to debunk his opinions I acted even worse than he was accusing anyone of acting, thus securing my position of head moron. I apologize for my lack of tact and for overreacting as I did. It was in poor taste, and to boot, I disappeared before feeling any public repercussion for my actions. I'm sorry David.
LeFrog: Early in Nic's tenancy as a Husaberg enthusiast, I gave him a very hard time, providing less leniency than anyone else was afforded, concerning some gripes he had about bikes, sellers and the Husaberg world in general. At one point, I put all my chips in the pot, losing my mind temporarily and going off at the mouth. I apologize for being such a dork, and for airing dirty laundry in public when any dispute should have clearly been done in private. I'm very sorry for that Nic, and am glad that you have a cooler head than I. You're a nice guy who I've been lucky to get to ride with.
Mackberg: Probably years ago now, I was surfing the referers at the site, and found a link on Dirtrider.net(I think) about someone who had either had an accident on his bike, or had an illness(I can't remember which), and I posted a link to the thread on the forum where they were asking for assistance for him, thinking it was innocuous enough. Mack very politely stated that he thought it was in poor taste, and I said something to the effect that as soon as he ran the site, he could make those decisions. I can't apologize for posting the link, as it was done with the best intentions, but I am really sorry for feeling that I had the right to speak to anyone as I did when my actions were questioned. Instead of asking why, I made some stupid statement and moved on, really going against what I've always hoped everyone else would do in a disagreement on this site. It's a low move to use a position(whether it's real or imagined) as a defense for an action, and I feel like an ***** for doing so. I apologize to Mack for being that self-serving *****.
Bor: What must have been around 2001, Peter, I and quite a few people got engrossed in an online debate concerning the Sep. 2001 bombings, and who the real terrorists were. Months later, Peter contacted me asking to have his name removed from the members' list as he was boycotting any American entities. He never stated that our discussions were part of his decision, but I still feel sorry for being as full of zest as I was in our discussions. I know better than to speak politics online, and even in 2001, I viewed the site as an international haven for the Husaberg enthusiast. I apologize to Peter for confirming his beliefs that Americans thought themselves the center of the universe.
tminer470: Tminer turned to the UHE during a period of frustration concerning lack of support in regards to repairs on his bike. He posted in the dealer forum, and I moved it to the general category. He couldn't understand why, and although I tried to explain, he stated that I could delete his membership. I was flippant with my response, and instead of trying to resolve the issue, I went about my business. Tminer has never logged back on at the site under his member account(I check), but if you read this, I'm very sorry for not being as understanding about your situation as I should have been.
Whosaberg: In one of my final posts on the site, I used the lord's name in vain during my rant, thus offending Whosaberg, and probably quite a few other members. I know better than anyone about the diversity of the members on this site, which means I should have known better than anyone that this was a careless and stupid thing to do. I'm sorry for being disrespectful to your beliefs.
Frank(the crazy German): Years ago(again), Frank the German joined the site, and I made a comment concerning his mastery of the english language. This one taught me the importance of understanding the guts it takes to enter an online world using a language you're not fluent in. It was so thoughtless of me to poke fun at him, that I even surprised myself, and Frank was never really offended, which made it all the worse for me, because it kind of made clear how much of a nicer guy he was than me. Frank has been long gone from this site, but I would still like to apologize for being so small minded. He made a lot of people laugh with his stories and pictures(don't eat the man-child!), and if my comment had run him off, we would have never gotten to know what a great person he was.
Guys, there's a bunch more(isn't there always), but this is about all the honesty I can handle in one dose. In short, these things have made it clear to me that I am the last person you would want to have as a mediator, and although my point wasn't to make this painfully clear to everyone, I hope everyone understands that although I've done some really crappy things to people who are a part of this community, I make an attempt to do right, and when I fail, I feel very badly for it. To the guys named above, I hope you viewed my posts for what they were, that being just a guy with no more right to an opinion than anyone else thinking very little of the bad feelings my words would cause.
We now return you to your regularly scheduled program.
thanks,
json
First off, let me say that I hope everyone is doing well, and I've missed you all. Although it will never be in the same capacity as before, I'm looking forward to hanging out with everyone again, moreso than many could imagine. Before I can begin my life at the UHE anew however, I must take care of a couple of things, so I can start my life as an enthusiast with as clean a slate as I can accomplish. That's the purpose of this post.
This may, at first glance seem like a post that doesn't belong here, but I'm sure it does. Everything that I'm about to write about happened on this forum, so this is the place that I need to attempt any acts of atonement. As well, it's going to seem a very dramatic deal for what many will feel is small potatos, but these are things that I think about daily, and they bother me a lot. I promise that I'll try to keep it brief and I apologize in advance for the seemingly melodramatic tone that this post takes. I've tried to keep it to the point, but as I've come to find out with a post as odd as this one, it's hard to make it blend in with the rest of them.
As some of the long standing members may know, I'm an insomniac. Whether I have a lot to do, or a little, I rarely fall asleep any earlier than 3 am, and that's if everything is ok. Now I'm not sure which is a cause and which is a symptom, but regardless, I have a lot of time to think about past transgressions. Things that I've done in my life bother me that other people might not have such a problem with. This would be ok, except for the fact that I've done a bunch of things that I wish I hadn't. My earliest regret is being really mean to a girl that I sat behind in Mrs. Jones' class in second grade. Her name was Ruth and she was unlucky enough to be seated in front of me. For a whole year, I made her life a living hell, pulling her hair, breaking her pencils and anything else I could do to annoy her. Now at face value, this wouldn't seem like a big deal, but it's amazing what can keep you up at night, and this is one of them. Usually, I'll be right at the edge of dozing off, and I'll remember something like this, and I'll be awake again, only to start the process over again.
I've tried to find Ruth to apologize, but have never had any luck, so this one sticks with me. However, I can right some wrongs that I've commited at the UHE, and that's what I plan to do now. It's irrelevent if I'm forgiven or not for these things. For me, the important thing is that I apologize for the things I've done in the same enviroment where I did the thing I'm apologizing for. Unfortunately for me, that's a fairly busy public forum, but I feel that it needs to be done if I'm going to try to be a part of the online family. Buckle up. I've done a lot of crappy stuff, and I'm atoning for some of it here. There's no order of importance, I'm just placing them as I have written the names down. Also, I know that this isn't all, so if you've got me on your list of jerks, and I don't apologize for what I did, please don't take it personally, I can only manage so much dredging of crappy things(I do a lot of crappy things).
Taffy: Mr. Lloyd made his opinions known recently concerning the mods & admins approach at cleaning up the site. In my fervor to debunk his opinions I acted even worse than he was accusing anyone of acting, thus securing my position of head moron. I apologize for my lack of tact and for overreacting as I did. It was in poor taste, and to boot, I disappeared before feeling any public repercussion for my actions. I'm sorry David.
LeFrog: Early in Nic's tenancy as a Husaberg enthusiast, I gave him a very hard time, providing less leniency than anyone else was afforded, concerning some gripes he had about bikes, sellers and the Husaberg world in general. At one point, I put all my chips in the pot, losing my mind temporarily and going off at the mouth. I apologize for being such a dork, and for airing dirty laundry in public when any dispute should have clearly been done in private. I'm very sorry for that Nic, and am glad that you have a cooler head than I. You're a nice guy who I've been lucky to get to ride with.
Mackberg: Probably years ago now, I was surfing the referers at the site, and found a link on Dirtrider.net(I think) about someone who had either had an accident on his bike, or had an illness(I can't remember which), and I posted a link to the thread on the forum where they were asking for assistance for him, thinking it was innocuous enough. Mack very politely stated that he thought it was in poor taste, and I said something to the effect that as soon as he ran the site, he could make those decisions. I can't apologize for posting the link, as it was done with the best intentions, but I am really sorry for feeling that I had the right to speak to anyone as I did when my actions were questioned. Instead of asking why, I made some stupid statement and moved on, really going against what I've always hoped everyone else would do in a disagreement on this site. It's a low move to use a position(whether it's real or imagined) as a defense for an action, and I feel like an ***** for doing so. I apologize to Mack for being that self-serving *****.
Bor: What must have been around 2001, Peter, I and quite a few people got engrossed in an online debate concerning the Sep. 2001 bombings, and who the real terrorists were. Months later, Peter contacted me asking to have his name removed from the members' list as he was boycotting any American entities. He never stated that our discussions were part of his decision, but I still feel sorry for being as full of zest as I was in our discussions. I know better than to speak politics online, and even in 2001, I viewed the site as an international haven for the Husaberg enthusiast. I apologize to Peter for confirming his beliefs that Americans thought themselves the center of the universe.
tminer470: Tminer turned to the UHE during a period of frustration concerning lack of support in regards to repairs on his bike. He posted in the dealer forum, and I moved it to the general category. He couldn't understand why, and although I tried to explain, he stated that I could delete his membership. I was flippant with my response, and instead of trying to resolve the issue, I went about my business. Tminer has never logged back on at the site under his member account(I check), but if you read this, I'm very sorry for not being as understanding about your situation as I should have been.
Whosaberg: In one of my final posts on the site, I used the lord's name in vain during my rant, thus offending Whosaberg, and probably quite a few other members. I know better than anyone about the diversity of the members on this site, which means I should have known better than anyone that this was a careless and stupid thing to do. I'm sorry for being disrespectful to your beliefs.
Frank(the crazy German): Years ago(again), Frank the German joined the site, and I made a comment concerning his mastery of the english language. This one taught me the importance of understanding the guts it takes to enter an online world using a language you're not fluent in. It was so thoughtless of me to poke fun at him, that I even surprised myself, and Frank was never really offended, which made it all the worse for me, because it kind of made clear how much of a nicer guy he was than me. Frank has been long gone from this site, but I would still like to apologize for being so small minded. He made a lot of people laugh with his stories and pictures(don't eat the man-child!), and if my comment had run him off, we would have never gotten to know what a great person he was.
Guys, there's a bunch more(isn't there always), but this is about all the honesty I can handle in one dose. In short, these things have made it clear to me that I am the last person you would want to have as a mediator, and although my point wasn't to make this painfully clear to everyone, I hope everyone understands that although I've done some really crappy things to people who are a part of this community, I make an attempt to do right, and when I fail, I feel very badly for it. To the guys named above, I hope you viewed my posts for what they were, that being just a guy with no more right to an opinion than anyone else thinking very little of the bad feelings my words would cause.
We now return you to your regularly scheduled program.
thanks,
json
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